firsts.

next monday, i'll be a volunteer for the very first time in my 20 years of (mundane) life. 50 volunteers from dbs will be bringing kids from the salvation army's bukit panjang family service centre to the zoo (yay zoo!). it's an event organised by my sis's dept - how interesting. oooh i love kids. i love fat kids. and i'd love to bring fat kids to the zoo! but of course, the other real intention behind it is to obviously get away from work on monday! [grins] i'd rather spend my time with the animals and beasts than people from my dept. haha. anyway, i'm praying that i'll be paired with a fat kid. as fat as he/she possibly can be :) oh, but chances are, we'll probably lose in the amazing race since he/she's so fat, he/she cant run fast!

last night, i drove for the very first time since i got my license. i drove gee, cyn, tra, cyn's mom and muddy to sengkang, and pasir ris via tpe. my mom nearly fell off the chair when i told her i came back via the old tampines road. lol. it was a good experience really. learnt the ropes of parking w/o poles (which is rather tough). credit goes to the chua family. tyvm :)

today, i think i am suffering from depression for the first time. i simply have soooooooooooooo many things on my mind and sooooooooooooooo many things to worry about i might just go bonkers any second. trust me, the matters i'm fretting over arent as trivial as what they may seem. [sighs]

well as you can tell, it's an entry with mixed feelings.
i want to believe god is fair. but is he really?